Sometimes I get exhausted talking at length about this situation.
Sometimes I get sick of agreeing with people that it really will be ok, and I'll be a stronger person b/c of this
Sometimes I'm tired of acting fine just so I don't make you more sad
Sometimes I want to talk about what's going on, but when I'm done I'm done
Sometimes I don't want to hear how you think he's a horrible person and really I'm better off
Sometimes I just want to talk about normal things
Sometimes I know when you ask 'how are you doing' your just asking about how I'm feeling about the situation today
Sometimes I'm completely fine, and not thinking about it at all
Sometimes the stupidest things are bugging me for no real good reason
Sometimes I don't want to talk
Sometimes I want nothing more than to talk
Sometimes I don't want to hear about your kid or your grandkid b/c it makes me really sad that I'm no where near that experience yet
Sometimes what made me feel ok yesterday just makes me feel worse the next day
Sometimes I want to be left alone
Sometimes I'm just waitinghopingpraying you'll talk to me
All of this to say - it can be dang confusing in my head... sometimes
2 comments:
This is a super difficult and confusing time and I hope you know that everyone is just trying to show you support and love right now. No one knows the exact "right" thing to say at any moment. I hope you can find peace and happiness within yourself. I am here to talk or not to talk. Love you!
very poignant indeed! this is,hopefully, one of the toughest struggles you will face in your life. its hard; its okay; its rotten; there's hope. no rules and no one knows the right thing to say/do. it will get better. as susan noted--i'm here to talk or not to talk........i just might sometimes need a clue as to which (smile). hug with love......mom
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